Finding Time

budgeting time is about the same as budgeting money, or at least that is what i am finding out seems to be true most of the time. i have always had a problem with both, whether finding the motivation or the follow through after the motivation. discipline is hard and it becomes harder to do the older i get. the rub comes in when i found myself nickel and diming myself out of pursuing my dreams financially and then realized that it carried over into my time. a movie here and chinese food there and i just couldn't find a way to pay my rent on time much less take voice lessons. the serious palm to forehead moment came when one of my bosses told me to write down every dollar that i spend and every dollar that i make and see where the money goes and comes. she told me to look hard at my finances and find a way to make my dreams come true. a day or two into doing that and i began to look at how i was using my time...since i just can't seem to find time between my two jobs to go to the gym and practice singing. i do struggle with over-committing and finding that my body just won't come through for me. i've still got some fun injuries from getting hit by that truck that are getting the upper hand over me sometimes, especially when it gets cold. these injuries are part of something that i couldn't control, but how these injuries play into my future life, to a certain extent, i can control. i can budget my time so that i can build some nice, strong muscles to hold my joints solid when the temperature drops.

today i found myself actively budgeting my time on the fly. i had to scrub stains out of my work shirts, run the laundry so i have clean clothes for work, get in an arm workout, starch and iron a shirt and shower...all before going to job number one and later to job number two. today wasn't a music day, but tomorrow will be. i'll be damned if i didn't find a way to do everything and not kill myself. i had to get out the 2 lb dumbells  and the yoga mat and work my arms while the clothes were in the washer and then shower while they were in the dryer. i got it all done and managed to be at work on time, although i did forget my pants for job number two and had to buy some new ones right before work. i hope i never forget my pants again.

just for today i found that if i keep my goals first and foremost, focusing on what i really want, that i can accomplish more.